hey

i have alot of hate anger and rage built up inside of me,all i ever wanted was a normal boring upbringing and life, a stable relationship,knowledge and love,instead i had a drunk violent wife and kid beater father that literally tried to kill my mother with his car,i had a stepfather that took joy in trying to beat the "ladlie" out of me,too many drunken fucked up relationships to count,crack addiction,all of my friends and ex lovers from the 80's and 90's are dead from aids,the big man has to have a plan in store for me, i try to go to aa and na but jesus fucking christ i get so tired of it